sad new year 2026

 hello, everyone ! i haven't updated you since last year, have i? im very sorry for my absence.. anyway. school started again, around the 5th, and as im writing this it's the 20th, so im very much kicked back into the swing of things. i don't really like doing things over the weekend, so i just spent one of my study periods (is that what you americans call it?) doing some work i should've done then. to be honest, im only writing to tell you that my mental health is at an all time low. i deleted all my socials yesterday in a fit of sadness, and i think im going to take some time for myself right now.. however, it's a bit hard to find any time for me. or, push myself to do it. even doing things i like feels boring and makes me sososooo tired as of now, so i don't do much apart from sleep and wait for time to pass. i feel veryvery lonely, like nobody likes me at all, and that i'm not anybody's first option. it's just little things in how i interact with people and how they are interact with me that make me feel this way.. its even harder knowing, although that things will get better, they will get worse again. such is life! anyway, back to school. dude. my teacher set so much work :( she even set homeworkfor my nea which i didn't even know was possible. she also set 2 hours worth of work for russia. both due tommorow. and i haven't done any, so there's my evening i was supposed to take for myself gone.. maybe i will take a walk at break or lunch, break is next as im writing this. i genuinely think im going to die but let's move onto things that are more positive to end this on a good note.

but nothing is coming to mind..

ah! i fixed something on my website. i have a second status.cafe i use for update logs for things on my shrine now for kris, but it would NOT be in the right theme on my shrine page even though i have css for the shrine that takes priority. anyway, i got rid of my index.css just to see what would happen after ripping my hair out trying to make it work.. and that seemed to do the trick ! maybe i will update it later just to use the status cafe :) talking about kris always. makes me feel better, and now my page is pretty much perfect for that.. i want to add more funfacts, too.. anyway. im going to go now. let's make a little to do list before i leave..

nea timeline homework

russia pages homework

update kris shrine + button

prepare for tudor question

try my best!


there we go.. see you, everyone ! :) hopefully i will update a little happier next time. OH ALSO IM WORKING ON SOMETHING ONTUMBLR . MORE NEXT TIME!!


i miss my bed. also i have to show u my new kris plush tomm omg ok bye

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