hello, december !!

i embrace the cold with open arms ,

every night comes just a little faster ,

alas , my warmth for you is not enough !!



HI EVERYONE happy december 1st !! i just started my advent calendar, as we all did im sure. this year, it's reese's pieces !! lifeis slow and borimg but my love is every growing. but its starting to hurt me. i feel so much for my friends , it really hurts when they say something or a little off or *gulp* .. they pay attention to someone else...... AAHHH!!!! attention is a big part of my life and i have never been in this kind of position. still, the only way is forward so im not sure how to work on that without droolingall over my friends asking for reassurance and affirmation. as much as i want to.. but they will get sick of me.. AAAHHHHHHHHH its okay everyone loves me and imso cute and if they wanted to leaveme, they are capable enough to have done so already. enough of that. i have some little things prepared this time around, so lets get tothat...

if i were a candle scent..  i would be something sweet. cotton candy, funfetti.. maybe an undertone of vanilla and strawberry. i would be something super artifical sugar smelling.

if i were a leaf, where would i go? a lake !! i think leafs resting on the tops of lake are so cute and peaceful. and i would drift around all day on it with the water..

i've been listening to a lot of kpop recently.. its been lifting me up, making me feel like a real cute princess!! i am a princess, after all.. actually. speaking about princesses and princes, i have been struggling with my masucline identity for a small while. lets call myself a prince for a while.

ive also been struggling with school.. my first epq proper deadline is december 5th to have a whole first draft and i have like nothing done. ims upposed tobe about 2500 words, but im at 900. i also have no idea what im writing. if i had a plan inmind, i could probablydo it on sitting, but i dont. imsure ill figure it out.

sorry for the depressing letter so far.. ive been getting better at art!! its not the best but at keast its presentable now.. i will share some pieces ive made.





cute, right ? im pretty proud, actually.. i know they're not the best but all i wish for with my art is to be happy with it, and i am.. so, yay!! happy to end this on a good note.. i will let you know how my epq goes :) bye..!!

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